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[Nov. 4th, 2009|03:58 pm] |
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I need to lose weight badly
i hit the big SIX this time, really scary
i cant let this continue, help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Despite starting to run, which is so little effort put in, i seems cant to lose all those fats.
i am so desperate, depressed, this is really bad, sigh
help! need a hot bod for zouk out also |
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[Jul. 31st, 2009|02:32 pm] |
cant help but to update this rusty journal of mine. you know, life is hard. is already hard enough for alot of ppl out there( I am refering to the less fortunate). i dont think mine is hard at all, as such, i have a family, friends, job, knowledge and education, min purchasing power(not big, pls thou i shop alot, if i really have those big purchasing power as such u/he/she thinks i have, u should really look at those who brought big houses, car, credit cards with ur OWN abitlty.
is not that i cant take life, but is too subjective for me to absorb totally what life defintion is. my job is really hard tedious for me, so far so good, everyone is nice, i learn things, everything just seems to fall at the right place for me. but how come i hardly feel happy? i cant find happiness in this place. is not that i dont like here at all, is the work scope is it really suitable for me? or am i just going simply GET USE to it and live my life like a 30years woman that is gg to resign to fate. cant take this lying down.
i really dont know whats wrong is with me! right now, i wish i have 10billion worth of wealth, so i can take my worries away and die like a happy woman. without stressing, financial issue. (my biggest/hardest raw spot) and let me life the way i wish i could take. life w/o money, no, i dont want to live that anymore. give me more freedom in my financial status! ):
my job is hard but the pay totally doesnt tally with it. damn disgusting! |
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[May. 23rd, 2009|03:09 pm] |
Have so much to say to fill up this outdated journal of mine. But i just cant find the right time or right words to write down what i want to say!
and there's a whole list of things, i want to change about myself. Work is still fine.(will talk more later)
Graduation this coming thursday, dont know if i am looking forward or NOT looking forward?! just a tinge of emptiness and nostagia, didnt manage to cherish until something is lost.
as usual, i really need to start planning,saving, thinking hard what i really want to achieve in life. It is so meaningless in life when u have no goals, just exactly like me, seeing ur peers working hard to attain their goals, just makes me feel like a loser in a rat race.
we shall see how as there's alot of things i cant rush to, I dont want regret in my life's dictionary.
whatever that case is, hope everyone around me will be fine happy and safe. most importantly, dad and mum, u meant a whole world to me. I want to hold on tight with u till old, cos you make me prefect.(ps: apply to yuxuan too)
should really start making resolutions and reading more books, to be exact, newsapaper not counted because i read it everyday. haha. let's see any interesting books or self help books available! |
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