DoubleExpresso

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 08:02:40 GMT

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I need to lose weight badly
i hit the big SIX this time, really scary
i cant let this continue, help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Despite starting to run, which is so little effort put in, i seems cant to lose all those fats.
i am so desperate, depressed, this is really bad, sigh

help! need a hot bod for zouk out also

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 06:48:31 GMT

cant help but to update this rusty journal of mine. you know, life is hard. is already hard enough for alot of ppl out there( I am refering to the less fortunate). i dont think mine is hard at all, as such, i have a family, friends, job, knowledge and education, min purchasing power(not big, pls thou i shop alot, if i really have those big purchasing power as such u/he/she thinks i have, u should really look at those who brought big houses, car, credit cards with ur OWN abitlty.

is not that i cant take life, but is too subjective for me to absorb totally what life defintion is. my job is really hard tedious for me, so far so good, everyone is nice, i learn things, everything just seems to fall at the right place for me. but how come i hardly feel happy? i cant find happiness in this place. is not that i dont like here at all, is the work scope is it really suitable for me? or am i just going simply GET USE to it and live my life like a 30years woman that is gg to resign to fate. cant take this lying down.

i really dont know whats wrong is with me! right now, i wish i have 10billion worth of wealth, so i can take my worries away and die like a happy woman. without stressing, financial issue. (my biggest/hardest raw spot) and let me life the way i wish i could take. life w/o money, no, i dont want to live that anymore. give me more freedom in my financial status! ):

my job is hard but the pay totally doesnt tally with it. damn disgusting!

Sat, 23 May 2009 07:18:29 GMT

Have so much to say to fill up this outdated journal of mine. But i just cant find the right time or right words to write down what i want to say!

and there's a whole list of things, i want to change about myself. Work is still fine.(will talk more later)
Graduation this coming thursday, dont know if i am looking forward or NOT looking forward?! just a tinge of emptiness and nostagia, didnt manage to cherish until something is lost.

as usual, i really need to start planning,saving, thinking hard what i really want to achieve in life. It is so meaningless in life when u have no goals, just exactly like me, seeing ur peers working hard to attain their goals, just makes me feel like a loser in a rat race.
we shall see how as there's alot of things i cant rush to, I dont want regret in my life's dictionary.
whatever that case is, hope everyone around me will be fine happy and safe. most importantly, dad and mum, u meant a whole world to me. I want to hold on tight with u till old, cos you make me prefect.(ps: apply to yuxuan too)

should really start making resolutions and reading more books, to be exact, newsapaper not counted because i read it everyday. haha. let's see any interesting books or self help books available!

Sat, 23 May 2009 07:07:13 GMT

I AM FUCKING UNHEALTHY SHIT

damn i am so worried!

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 07:40:47 GMT

I used to think that if a guy dont give a shit damn about you, he is obviously dont give a shit damn for you
and of course, based on my character, I wont even bother to try my best/talk/etc with him anymore when i know he dont give a shit damn, and i will defintely find another guy that treat me better.

how wrong am i?

calm,cool and focus! ------------> i wish i could achieve that! really!! pls. I want to become a better person in life!

prayhard pray hard. God. pls fulfuil my wish! God is forever,God is good that's my only chance and hope!

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 11:39:29 GMT

.

Had a major drama with yuxuan yesterday, and we are still together, I have absolute no idea how long can we hold. whatever that case is, just try your best! anyway, I have nothing to lose. AND AND those who dont know what happened, PLS PLS dont judge, it hurts k! If someone(not 1 but 10 ppl, tells you about your bf with another girl, how will you feel?)
Driving me driving me MAD! I am super stress because I've got bad omen. I think I will pass at the 2rd try(at least) D: I am super noob when it comes to judgement and coordination. I orderd the F21 top! whoo. happy! haha
I can conclude I love clothes more than I love men.
and to ANONYMOUS, PLS have some balls to leave your name, and if you really thinks that way, then you must be very free, get a life and do something more meaningful, don't be stupid to think that, that will put me down. haha. look at youself into the mirror, i guess you are not better than me, at least I am ______, HAHA!
I have replied you comments btw(:
comments screeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeened, I need to protect privacy!AHAHA

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 16:04:03 GMT

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

fucking true

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 03:02:04 GMT

I have alot things to say or rather I need a space to type out what I have been thinking/feeling lately.

Finally, everything ended, final exams on the 9th march, fyp presentation(Dist or A or even C depends on the judges). Haven’t got the feeling of missing SP, I think I will. haha. After all, I feel 3years in SP are not wasted and I did not regret coming to SP (:

In any way, whatever I am going to type/say here is so personal. I still dont know what i want to do/study in future. damn confused and stress when your parents keep asking you to choose this/do that. But I did bring up the topic, going Australia, is definitely out of question right now, because my parents are not earning alot and i cant promise i can take good care of myself. Furthermore, I may not get a job that earns at least 5k if I graduate from lets say University of Sydney. We(Kathy,Daphne, Chiawei) did our sums is really hefty, if you are leaving in the city area is even higher. But ANU, I still want a place there. haha

Was reading 8days(issue on Jamie Yeo on cover page), I can’t agree more that what she had said, her split with Glenn Ong and moving on, finding someone new. I do see her in church. Especially like, her answer on : whose idea to split. ”it was mutual. As a couple you kind of feel it. It’s like you try and it’s doesnt work, and suddenly the relationship has become stagnant. And you become sad cos you can feel that it’s dying.” how true with this. I can actually relate to this. It is mutual, you just know you have to let go. ” I think you should be lovers first, the friends” The last thing I want to do is to hurt someone. But L(can be anything which I am not going to say) still bothering me.

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 13:46:37 GMT

THANKS GOD FOR KEEPING EVERYONE AROUND ME SAFE N SOUND
I LOVE U LORD :D

fame+power=wealth!

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 05:58:17 GMT

found my tunic in the end, it was shucked at some corner in my room!
i really need a bigger space to shuck my clothes
okay!
baby's back from taiwan (:
and hes 8-teen. i didnt prepare any gift/surprises or anything. i have an idea to make him something but i just no mood to do so. haha. alright, dinner together soon.
phuture together
2weeks more to term test. ):

i need to:
1. do hardcore revision
2. remove my braces(GO DENTAL)
3. tidy up my room
4. spend more time with my parents and stay at home
5. source for cloth. hehe
6. book lesson hehehehe
7. complete FYP ):
8. work when i have the time ):

why!! CNY falls on jan when my school term havent end. sucks acd calendar!

stress, can u take it?

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 14:43:58 GMT

underperfrom
i am at my lowest point in life: results sucks, figure sucks, face sucks, mates sucks blah blah blah
i dont know, i have nothing to look forward of. i have nothing i want to do except shopping, swimmg and joggg. (the last 2 i didnt manage to do so)
plenty of excuses
i have just reached a certain point in life; that i am tired. i only looking forward to have mama, pohpoh and yy. super love them only. and thanks to them!
i hate taking pics NOW cos its so obvious i have become bigger. look at the huge face.
and pls dont tell me looks and results are not important!

baby is so cute
playing with the cheesecake. haha! (:

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 04:44:15 GMT

i am wanna to cry ald! ):
SCHOOL STARTS=EAT MORE+ LITTLE SLEEP=FATTY
school sucks to core. fyp,tutorials, lectures, all pilling up like shit! futhermore all lessons end so late now! arrggh!
my bank acct is consistently at double digits which means nothing more than 100$ in my acct, i need a pt job! but judging from my recent results. its totally out of my ablilty.
DIE LIAO

i really hope baby can think about what he really wants to do. and dont dependent on anyone. if u continues to be like this, no one is going to dote on u, love u anymore. people will just find u very loser-ish/burden cause at the age of 18 u still dont know what u wanted and dont knw whats the BEST for yourself. u want ur parents to work so hard still? at least i am 19 when i grad and i can work and depend on myself. what abt u? wasting ur time and ur parents $$? and u still have a much younger brother. BE strong and dependent on yourself! u gotta to trust youself now. no not me. because i'm super unreliable! i am someone who will go to whats the best of me! you gotta brace up ur own life. just because u are now at ur comfort zone, u dont want go out to the wild anymore, is that going to make u become a better man? is that going to make u earn more? is this the way ur future going to be bright? idk. but pls dont make any choices based on someone: based on yourself. WHAT U WANTED AND WHATS THE BEST FOR YOU! okay, i know now, u are finding me very nagging ald.

Always think from ur own point of view pls! u are old enough to think i believe!

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 16:12:54 GMT

1. work tomorrow, and i am freaking scared :(
2. time to REALLY lose weight and excerise, hell alot alot alot people commented i have put on weight and i am super upset over this. i had a good chat with xuan that's why i am feeling better! i am never be slim in the first place
3. i will blog over my lose weight process!
4. results out. i got a FUCKING 2Cs this time round. i had no Cs at all over the past 4 sem. wtf :(
what i am thankful is that, my cumulative gpa is not affected!
5. i need to paint/clear my room as soon as xuan going back to sea again!

life can be pretty disappointing and dejected when u actaully know how people look at you! those comments are so scary and hurtful :(
i feel so loser-ish!

poh poh was here..heeh

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 19:00:29 GMT

BACK!

whoohoo
alive and kicking!
okay. photobucket is a bitch now. dont allow me to upload pics! only 1 pic

DAPHNE AND HUIHUI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MUST WEAR THE DRESS!!!

Sat, 31 May 2008 05:47:39 GMT

LOCKED
when i feel like (:

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 21:49:00 GMT

FUCK
this is so bad. i havent sleep yet. and look at the time is closed to 6. FUCK.
my body clock is not working. i am going to die when school reopen and this also explain why am i always overslept for training. i know the pool's back i am going to regret badly.
i detest the place. i detest how i am being look upon compared.
i just have no damn motivation to train with jrs.
i might as well wait for xuan to wake up to go training with him?!
ARRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGG.
i want to kill myself, someone pass me a knife (hm, i prefer a gun)

BANG AND SHOT ME DEAD

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 15:41:19 GMT

i need another Lj account!

YES PLS! (:

#4 and #8
can give me a catchy URL? hahaha

#1 and 2 are of course welcome!
(: hugs. haha

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 16:26:40 GMT

i will update next time ba!
haha.

nelly furtado: Do it.
this song is addictive. hahaha.

11 rules of life

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 14:55:28 GMT

Rule one
Life is not fair; get used to it.

Rule two
The world won’t care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Rule three
You will NOT make 40 thousand dollars a year right out of high school. You won’t be a vice president with car phone, until you earn both.

Rule four
If you think your teacher is tough, wait till you get a boss. He doesn’t have tenure.

Rule five
Flipping burgers is not beneath your dignity. Your grandparents had a different word for burger flipping; they called it opportunity.

Rule six
If you mess up, it’s not your parents’ fault, so don’t whine about your mistakes, learn from them.

Rule seven
Before you were born, your parents weren’t as boring as they are now. They got that way from paying your bills, cleaning your clothes and listening to you talk about how cool you are. So before you save the rainforest from the parasites of your parents’ generation, try “delousing” the closet in your own room.

Rule eight
Your school may have done away with winners and losers, but life has not. In some schools they have abolished failing grades; they’ll give you as many times as you want to get the right answer. This doesn’t bear the slightest resemblance to ANYTHING in real life.

Rule nine
Life is not divided into semesters. You don’t get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.

Rule 10
Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to the jobs.

Rule 11
Be nice to nerds. Chances are you’ll end up working for one

virgin post

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 14:05:55 GMT

hey journal,hahhaa!
i know is so dumb to "talk" like to a blog. LOL
oh yah. ppl here is JOAN NG 's very first post! hahaha
so do comment comment and comment. go ahead and leave ur beautiful note down.
ahhahaa.
okay. i must admit i am a very lazy person. so i'll try to update more. hahahaha

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